Akela akela sa mujhko kyun lage yun,
Suna suna koi khwab sa jage kyun,
Kaisi hoti hai tanha jindagi,
Dooriyon ne jaise ki hai dillagi,
Jag me koi bhi nahi mujhko dikhe jyun!!!
Kabhi hulchul bhari jindagi ko yaad kar,
Kabhi chalti bheed ko khud hi udaas kar,
Kis ore main chalta chalun kahan?
Kya manjil meri hai suni viraniyan?
Soch bhi thak gayi angdaayion ko bhar!!
Stambhit hua, kampit hua,
Tere baton ko sun stabhd main,
Jawab bin nishabd main
Haan aaj fir chintit hua!!!!
Kya chaha aur kya paaya hun,
Kyun na chala dhadkahon ko sun,
Majboor hua kis soch me,
Kismat hai kiske daboch me?
Kyun jindagi yun beh rahi?
Na kuch wo mujhse keh rahi,
Khamoshi hai sannata hai,
Chintan ka chubhta kaanta hai
Kis or chalna hai mujhe?
Andher hai ya hai diye bujhe?
Kya pragati ki yehi raah hai?
Ya badli hui meri chah hai?
Jis mod par main hun khada,
Jane kitne mushkilon se hun lada,,
Kya chal sakun sang na pata,
Par samajhna na ise meri khata.
Adhikar tujhpe bhi hai kahan,
Jiska suna sa hai jahan,
Khone ka dar kabhi tha nahi,
Pane ki aadat bhi ab hai kahan!!!
Chakit hua, Chanchal hua,
Adbhut tere in khayalon se,
Uttar rahit sawalon se,
Haan aaj fir chintit hua!!
Abhi had only thought of having fun with Aditi. He was very sure about the same when he left to meet Aditi for the first time. Confident about himself he knew he only had interest in getting physical with this girl and then move ahead in life.
Then they met. And then they met again. And then they kept on meeting again and again and again and again. With every meeting Abhi started admiring Aditi. She is a nice girl, good natured, pretty, rational, quirky and had a good heart. He started enjoying his time with her. A few weeks later, one day deeply imbibed in the good memories of time spend with Aditi, gradually he starts realizing that he can no more think of raw sex whenever Aditi comes to his mind. Surprised with this realization he tries to think what all would love to do with Aditi. Yes he could think of laughing with her, he could think of being with her as if there is no tomorrow, he could think of caring for her and listening to her endless words, he could think of hugging her, he could think of giving a peck on her forehead, yeah he could also think of kissing her but somehow his “use and throw” strategy he felt he will never be able to implement on this girl. Suddenly the fine line of difference between making love and having sex pops up in his mind and he starts understanding the differences between these terms. Yeah a sense of guilt does come to him for his initial thoughts about Aditi but at the same time he gets happy because of the respect that he has now developed for Aditi.
Abhi gets little confused why did this kind of change in this way of thinking happen gradually and whether this is love!!! He tries to ponder but a tired day does not permit him to think more. He closes his sleepy eyes and prays to god to imbibed into some good dreams of togetherness of him and Aditi.
