Signing off with a hope that the Weekend will be nice!!!!!

Hey all,
Being Very Optimistic.....wishing all the sloggers who slog for a 5 day week be it anywhere and in any kind of corporate atmosphere.....wish you all a NICE AND CHERISHING WEEKEND HOLIDAYS. Those who still have to slog their A** out in offices or even from house.....TOUGH LUCK.....be optimistic..good times are ahead waiting for you. :-)

The remaining part of the conversation and the takeaways!!!!

And now the remaining part of the conversation that went on unfinished yesterday. Here is how it went:

At night PD calls up and wants to talk to me. By that time I was pretty clear how to direct it, the time was enough (nearly a 3 hour gap between both the conversations) to organize my thoughts and words. So here is how it goes:

PD: Hi have you returned back home?
Me (In a very tired voice and not in a mood to talk): Yes, finally at home after a wonderful trip.
PD: Hmmmm, so can we talk now? I can’t keep on smiling and be happy and need to talk to you.
Me: Ok go ahead, tell whatever you want to speak.
PD: Are you tired? You sound a bit dull today. (lolllzzz… I don’t understand why people keep on asking silly questions)
Me: I am fine. You just go ahead.
PD: Yes. I was telling I am very happy. Finally my life is going the way I wanted it to go. I have started focusing on my career and my personal life is also getting into a way where everything will be harmonious. Aren’t you happy hearing that my mother and dreamt of the same thing? (the same thing is marrying me…..lollllllzzzzz)
Me: Well what I feel is not so important at this point of time. Tell me have you talked to SH? (SH is her boyfriend, and both of them are committed, I seriously doubt where do I come in the picture then?)
PD: Yes I have talked. He started crying as soon as I told him regarding the conversation between me and mom. He was pleading you know that he should be given one chance and he will definitely prove him before my parents.
Me: So still after that you feel happy regarding the news?
PD: I am happy because of the fact that I and my mother think so much similar regarding my marriage. But I feel sorry for SH.
Me: See PD one thing should be clear. One can’t keep on adopting middle path. Time has come to take a call. You know he loves you so much, even after that how could you think otherwise? Either you leave him and then think about getting committed to others which is the last thing I would suggest to anybody. Else stick with him and show commitment in the relationship. As far as I am concerned I am not at all desperate to get a girl friend neither am I very eager to get married at this stage of life. I firmly believe the voice of my parents is also very much similar regarding this matter. So please stop getting so happy about trifle things. One more thing be a little bit more decisive about matters. Think what you want from your life and act like that. You are committed to somebody else then how can you think of getting married to somebody else even before giving a try to find out how your parents find SH. Personally I hate people who can’t take decisions properly. Again it’s not about what I like or dislike rather its about how can you make your life better. I hope I have conveyed my message without hurting you.
PD: I understand whatever you have told and will definitely practice them. By the way are you not happy about the news?
Me: In one harsh word, No. Things should not go the way one wants to take always. Rather events should find their way to happen in our life at a proper time and in a proper manner. PD I was sentimental and an emotional guy but that Soum has died somewhere. Life has taught me a lot in harder ways, most of the time me taking a toll of whatever happens around me. Gone are those days now. I am very particular about what I need from life and I plan for short term goals. As in my short term goals marriage is nowhere I must not give a thought to this matter. Yes I would love to get a girlfriend whom I marry later in my life, but again there as you are already committed to somebody else you are definitely not in picture. So better don’t be so happy rather think out ways to reveal the truth to your parents: The truth that you are committed to somebody else!!!!! Have I made myself clear PD?
PD (After a short silence): Yes Soum you have. Thanks for your advice. You have changed for good. Keep it up.
Me: Thanks. Any ways I need to move as I have to leave for my di’s house. Catch you later. Have a nice day. Bye.
PD: Bye.

I realize that I have become a bit harsh but telling the words at a proper time and to a proper person resolves conflicts most of the times, rather conflicts don’t even arise. I have always been a wonderful counselor when it comes to others. I found that the quality is getting honed day by day. Moreover my reach on the subjects on which I can counsel people is getting wider with every passing day. Good Soum……keep it up. Never fear to tell the truth and KISS in you conversation. (KISS: Keep it straight and simple).

Possessive about possessions - That's the way I am!!!

I sold out my old CDMA cell (well 3 month old things can be called old aren’t they?) and bought a new Samsung Max. Since purchasing it I have been constantly going on admiring it and discovering new features about the cell every other second. Yup I am childish when it comes to my possessions especially new ones. I try my best to keep them look like new ones as long as I can. I really don’t know whether it’s good or bad but this is the way I am and don’t want to change my habits for anyone’s sake!!!!!

Things keep on happening around me!!!!

Well first things first: The trip to Matheran was amazing. There were some incidents that should not have happened (like me calling D sick, though I wanted to tell something different but that particular word came out of my mouth). Lots of snaps were shot: the silent evidences that talk louder than anything else and take us back in the memory lane even after the trip would have fazed out of our mind.

I haven’t written for quite sometime (may be 4-5 days since my last blog was updated). Lots of significant happenings happen around me. Some are more significant while other are less significant. In the mean time I was able to track 2 more chameleons among the so called friends here among the MTs. Now days they don’t surprise me rather it feels as if it is unnatural if I don’t spot a few at a place.

Now coming to some important conversations. On my trip to Matheran suddenly someone chipku friend calls me up. Lets call her PD for instance. Now here is how the conversation goes:

PD: hello dear how r u?
Me: hey I am fine…. Wassup after so many days? Everything is fine na? (this bugger calls me up whenever anything is wrong in her life, mostly caused by her useless boyfriend).
PD: Yes absolutely fine, I have called you to give a stunning news. Today mom called me up and told me that they (her parents) have a cherished dream of seeing her getting married to me!!!! I told u na that I loved you so much but could never tell you and always had a dream of getting married to you. I think now life is going in the right track.
Me (absolute stunned, confused and not getting any word to utter): What????? Yeah I do remember u told me something like that somedays back. Well how all this happened and why did aunty tell such a thing to you today???
PD: well your mother made a visit to my house and discussed about us, more about what you like and dislike about girls. My mother got a hint and invited your parents for a lunch party. She (her mom) told me that any day that guy tells you about marrying you don’t say no. Ah, I am so happy that my cherished dream is coming true.
Me (absolutely speechless): Well….Ummmm…….there is some signal problem here. I am not able to hear you properly. Can I talk to you after I have reached home?????

The remaining part of the conversation in the next blog!!! Let the suspense remain!!!!

Strange things happen around you turning insignificant days into significant ones!!!!

Some days go just insignificant. Today was one such day of my life. There is nothing worth for which I can feel any sense of achievement today. Moreover feeling a little bit guilty as I whiled away most of the times today doing nothing in the office. I can sense a complacency getting developed inside me. I hate this complacency as it decreases my efficiency. So the best thing to do is to hit back from tomorrow morning once again with full vengeance. I smell danger whenever I feel like “yes Soum you are working very well”. Sometimes I feel when it comes to work there should not be anything that is WELL in my dictionary. That’s when I can match my hidden potential and work the best.

Now it’s time for some strange incidents. Yesterday one of the management trainees residing with us in the same apartment [different flat although :-)] comes to my house and enquires about my cell phone. I have a Nokia 2505 CDMA with me which has served quite well. But again there is something that people say is: farther the things, merrier they look. Hence, despite my cell serving so well I was tempted to try out the one that is used by most of my fellow MTs, Samsung Explore. We ended up in a healthy negotiation of swapping our phones (lots of swapping happening off late in my life in such diverse domains like phone, project stints lolllzzzz, hope better swapping to come my way J) and did that. I was happy with his one though it had some scratches and the color had faded at some parts.

Today morning the bugger calls up and tells that the Samsung people will replace the set and he will give me a new Samsung Explore and take this old one from me. I was a little skeptical with the proposal as I sensed something fishy getting cooked up in that bugger’s mind. Now around 3 o’ clock a call comes from the bugger telling me that the battery of my Nokia set is not that good and its not helping him out as he has to make long calls and lots of calls during a day. That bastard shows interest in changing our handsets once again i.e. taking back our respective original phones with us. That’s all I wanted to share. Now readers analyze this!!!!! I hate people who make a decision and can’t stand with it. I hate myself too for feeling the farther the field is the greener it looks!!!!!!!

When I feel nothing at heart, my brain starts working!!!!

A goes to Delhi, B his GF wants to go to Delhi. Looks like quite obvious thing ain’t it? But there is a problem. The problem was whether I will agree to swap my project with B and give her my Delhi stint or not. Though she never knows it but I have identified her as one of the a**h*les present here, one of the chameleons I was referring in yesterdays blog. Looks like an Ekta Kapoor’s K soap eh? Will S agree to swap his stint with B? Will B be able to go Delhi with her a**h*le boyfriend? Lots of questions ain’t it?

Two ethical principles guided my decision in this regard. First one: Greater good for a larger population and second one: Ends justify means. Well a third one can also be put here, my own one: when I don’t consider one as my friend then the only thing that goes on in my mind is: BUSINESS.

B has the dream stint I always wanted to get: Marketing Communications or Marcomm as called here in TCL. So the deal seems valid to me: B gives me Marcomm and in exchange I give her Delhi. Hope now the higher authority (read HR guys) does not make a mountain out of a mole and help us with this swap. Moreover in this whole swapping process I will be totally latent with only A and B coming in the picture. I will only come in picture if its needed for my good. Any ways I will never get another fool who will want to exchange a Marcomm profile for a Channel Sales. So for me grab the opportunity as it comes!!!!

Chameleons everywhere, they change their color so fast!!!

Today was a significant day for me. Thanks to somebody today I could find out some Chameleons out here among my so called friends in Tata Communications. I just don’t understand what is the problem of these bastards, why can’t they just speak their hearts out? These buggers behave so good before that idiots like me get into the trap of believing them and end up being a prey of them. They spread rumors, do a lot of vague talking behind you so that people who have not even interacted with you feel like you are actually the same way they portray you to them. Guys do it nicely but even girls after getting so friendly to me, caring so much for so many days – shit man how can they do it yaar. This bunch of losers actually makes me feel that nobody is trustable in this world apart from your parents. Value, ethics, and judgment all these words get ashamed of because of such a behavior of them. And what an irony!!! These people work under the TATA group – one of the most ethical and morally upright groups doing business in this world.

Whom to trust? Whom to consider your friend here in this ugly corporate world? I feel like hitting all of them and making this country a little bit more bastard free. But just can’t help it. These people are there everywhere, they are like VODAFONE – wherever you go their network follows. Today its me tomorrow it will be another Soum.

One thing is clear that the frolic, lively Soum has to be non existent. I have to change for good, otherwise these a**h*les will make my living even more unworthy here. I feel like an idiot who have been fooled by people day after day. I feel like an optimistic bastard who never stops trusting people despite getting hurt due to their dual nature of existence. Time has come to teach them a lesson!!!!